january third, two thousand twelve
still can’t get pictures in here cause i don’t know where my camera charger is..
not much of anything happened today
went for a little walk after i mailed rachel’s letter because lily wanted me to.
going to try fasting tomorrow because apparently it’s a sworn-by way to fix your sleep schedule
i don’t see myself making it through a day without food though
but it’s worth a try
january second, two thousand twelve
still don’t know how to do this so here’s my thoughts and events of the day:
i had the weirdest fucking dream last night i really don’t know what to make of it.
basically in short, i beat the absolute shit out of erik because he smashed my face into a giant chocolate muffin and threw my cellphone across the room. i was basically screaming at anyone and anything the entire dream. i hope i never snap like that in real life. i think everyone would die.
i hope erik never finds this blog
i need to phone my school and talk to them about when i need to finish by. my mom stumbled when i was talking to her, so i think she lying about having to be done by the first of march. also, the entire site is fucking up again, so i need to yell at them.
grama phoned me again to talk about university. i told her i had a migraine and left. i need to apply soon if i want to get a dorm, but i have no idea anymore.
signed into facebook to see a picture of jesse giving ryan and blowjob. signed out of facebook.
i hope my mom and i can go to kamloops this weekend. but if we have to bring jeremiah then i’m just staying here. they’ve been screaming at eachother none stop all day and i’m about done with it.
today, i realized i go to the clinic way too much when i didn’t know if i should call my doctor or my hairdresser first.
i’m so thankful i don’t have to school tomorrow. and not in a “i don’t wanna get up, my classes are boring, i have a test i didn’t study for” way. i’m thankful that i don’t have get sent back to a living hell. last night, i was going through my facebook. like, really old posts. i had a status saying something stupid along the lines of “going to kamloops, goodbye revelstoke, you suck”. ryan commentd “fag” which i didn’t think much of at the time cause ryan is stupid. but, when i looked at the post yesterday, i saw ryan’s comment had 7 likes. 2 from a couple boys i know, and 5 from people i’d never even heard of. i know i shouldn’t let shit like that bother me, but what the fuck. what on earth did i do to you guys.. i promise you, it is not a nice feeling to be resented by so many people that you don’t even know. i’m thankful every second, of every minute, of every single day that i never have to go back.
